Welcome, Cecilia!

[Jeff Varner]

I like the being a good sport after tribal. What went wrong?

Also, enjoy Ponderosa!

[Stephannie]

looks like someone should have kept me around

And you'd think a player who is online as long as you would have the social smarts to see this coming.

[Flicka]

I don't like you at all, Cecilia, but good game and welcome. Hopefully we can make amends in the jury.

[Stephannie]

Ya to be fair I did really like you until it was obvious you only wanted to use me as a number and didn't actually care.


I'm excited for your entitled jury speech where you call out the three of them for "not playing the game" if they were outside of your alliance.

[Cecilia]

*Shows up awkwardly*

Hello girls, and thanks Jeff!
Well I obviously played clumsily but I have no regrets, this was the only time I feel I didn't scramble and was the time I was voted out. I had so much fun and wouldn't change anything because I could play again at some point and I learnt something. Great first ORG experience for sure.


Flicka I never liked you, Steph knows. I know some people that are as half assed as you when it comes to texting. It wasn't cool to want to form a bond and feel you didn't care to. This is what this game is based on.

Steph, I'm sorry we fought. I tried SO HARD to convince Jessica to work with us when I had that Jessica/Nate/Stacy/Myself thing going on and she was dead set on you. She was like, uh, no I don't care who you're voting for, Steph is my vote. And then Cassandra, who is calling the shots at the moment and running the game, by the way, proposed changing the vote from Lil to you. Everyone was agreeing, actually most people is playing the under the radar game. Nate is, and he's doing amazingly. Me and Candice had to give up, I ended up believing it was my best option to let you go and my mistake was not telling you because I thought you'd do something crazy, and I wasn't wrong (THAT WAS AMAZING--- except that I was a bit sad we ended up like that).


One of my highlights was getting to know you and Candice, by the way.

[Stephannie]

Ya and thanks for letting all the hard feelings go, I really wish we could get back to the way things were before the first swap where we could send each other PM's and mean the nice things said to one another.

I do appreciate that you tried to get me to stay, and I noticed it almost worked when I saw those couple of Liliana votes there. Sorry for being stank and raging the past couple of days about it

This was your first org experience? I was going to say you played a good game, but for a first time that's even better! You seemed to be "at the top" from the very first day and stayed there for a while.


and btw this is your first org? Yo

[Stephannie]

oh whoops I thought I deleted that bottom part and re-typed it

[Flicka]

Flicka I never liked you, Steph knows. I know some people that are as half assed as you when it comes to texting. It wasn't cool to want to form a bond and feel you didn't care to. This is what this game is based on.

I think EVERYONE knows you never liked me. What I don't understand is why? What did I do to you that made you act so rudely toward me? We were only on the same tribe way back in the beginning and during my last days, which totaled like 5 or 6 days, which is a big part of why I'm confused about this. It seemed to come out of nowhere and I don't get it because I never said anything bad about you or even tried to get you out. Even still in this message, you're coming at me harshly. Can you just explain it to me? And PLEASE try not to be mean about it.

[Cecilia]

If I didn't freak out I would've done so much better. My social game was on fleek. I connected with a lot of people but I didn't gain their trust. Well you two threw me under the bus and it worked! I made too many mistakes by talking to people I didn't know talked with other people. And well. Jessica and Stacy were the ones that changed their votes. Lil was the first option, neither did Penner or me or Candice like it but Cassandra had really good arguments. She's the one calling the shots. Besides, I really thougth I needed Jessica because I would have that foursome! I have Jessica, I would have Stacy too. And I thought Nate was just a follower but he's playing his own game. He voted me out yet he said he wouldn't. I tricked him when he first got replaced. Said everyone was still voting him out but I could make them change their minds IF he was loyal to me and voted my way, he said yes and I thought he was loyal until today. Obviously he helped me a lot, but I left some relationships forgotten when I shouldn't. Today, I just talked with the guys like it was day 1. Almost nothing game related. I tried to not play so hard for at least a day, I was blindsided.

I'm a Survivor freak, I love playing, I love the scrambling, the lying, the backstabing, I recently rewatched Cagayan. So yeah, I'm just savvy but out here, I was a bit of a hot mess, my game was far from perfect.

I cared for you Steph! I was so worried all the time for you when we were in opposite tribes, even thought you were a goner at F13 and was sad about it. And I was excited to be back with you at the merge until I realized maybe I was gonna have to put your name down :/


And Flicka it wasn't that I didn't like you, I just thought your social game was so bad that it made me laugh. But nothing personal against you, really. I actually couldn't get to know you... so.

[Flicka]

And Flicka it wasn't that I didn't like you, I just thought your social game was so bad that it made me laugh. But nothing personal against you, really. I actually couldn't get to know you... so.

Okay. All of this is completely fine. You thought my social game was so bad, this is fine. I disagree, obviously, because I made connections with a lot of people and I only ended up being voted out one day before you did, but this doesn't really answer my question. What did I do to you that caused you to act so rudely toward me in your PMs? Or are you saying you were acting so mean to me because you didn't get to know me? If this is the case, that doesn't really make any sense to me. I can totally understand you not wanting to work with me or not trust me because we didn't know each other very well because for most of the game we were not on the same tribe, but I don't see why that's a reason to act so cold toward me.

Keep in mind, I'm not trying to start a fight or anything, I'm trying to be civil and make amends, but it doesn't seem like you're trying to do the same because once again, you're insulting the way I played the game.

[Cecilia]

What annoyed me is that you were or SEEMED so clueless. I don't regret calling you dumb at all. Girl, shut your mouth. I'm telling you something, you go and tell everyone. You lied about not Stacy even though it was annoying you did. I was genuine about wanting to work with you but you just couldn't just let go of your Svinoy alliance. You seriously fucked up your game by not taking me seriously. We both would still be there if you weren't so clueless, like what are you gonna do with a four person Alliance in a tribe of 12? Yet you still had no effort in changing that and I think you were comfortable in the bottom when you could've made something happen with the rest of your tribemates. It just takes a chat, tal(tal about their lifes, laugh, or something. Create a connection. Yet the first few days you barely talked to anyone. I guess you thought your short answers were enough. You weren't trying. You were boring. You were ranked low because many people thought the same. Then back at the merge, you seemed to talk a bit more, but your social game was lacking, at least with me. You found yourself at the bottom because you didn't play. Talking IS playing. You get that? I was voted out because I wasn't loyal, I was willing to flip and do crazy stuff and sadly what I planned didn't work. But I always was in a strong position within my alliances, I think. I always found myself in the majority, I just didn't want to feel too comfortable within it at the merge and made uo so many plans that worked in my head, but obviously told it to the wrong people. You and Rebecca bother me because of that. You're terrible person to chat with, you're like a stone. AND I felt you were a waste of space, that you really didn't want to talk to me. Or didn't put any effort into PMs. Someone that wasn't even funny. Felt like you were a waste of space and I didn't want to play with someone like that. I don't regret this thinking because when I brought a real deal to you on episode 7 you were like yeah, and I believed you but in reality you were spreading it around and not so willing. I never trusted you, I CAN'T TRUST someone that doesn't know how to carry a conversation, I was risky by talking game to you, and it costed me. For a Survivor super fan, I'd say your game was insulting.

[Cecilia]

You lied about not voting* Stacy even though it was obvious* you did.

[Flicka]

Okay, I don't know what it is about you that for some reason you are simply unable to have a conversation with me without insulting me so for the first time in this game, I'm gonna say something not so nice about you and I'm gonna go with, go fuck yourself, you stupid cunt.

I talked to everyone in the game except for you because you were such a bitch to me. Doesn't really make any sense for me to talk to someone is unwilling to work with me. You say you were, but it's clear by your PMs and actions that you weren't. You say my game was terrible. Well, if it was, then yours wasn't much better because you were voted out only one day after me.

You're telling you something, I go and tell everyone? What are you even talking about? You never told me anything in the game and anything you did tell me wasn't worthy of telling anyone else.

I lied about voting for Stacy? Big deal. Just like you and everyone else I've told lies in the game. How terrible of me. Almost as terrible as telling someone they're a waste of space.

I think it really does show your true character that you can be such an asshole to someone because they didn't talk to you. That's like first grade shit. "You didn't talk to me, so I'm gonna be mean to you". Grow up.

You can keep telling me I wasn't willing to talk with you or work with you but I was. It was YOU who wasn't willing to work with me all because of these preconceived notions about me from day one where we were all still learning how to play. Yes, sometimes my PMs were short and that was because most of the time I would be on my phone because I would be at work during game hours and I can't type paragraphs worth of reading on my phone, but I offered you plans and you just disregarded them. I talked to you and you would insult me. What reason would I have to communicate with someone like that?

By the way, why did you keep referring to me and Steph as sore losers? What did we do to be classified as sore losers?

[Flicka]

Thinking about my last post, I realize I shouldn't have said that and I'm sorry, Cecilia. I was angry when I wrote that and shouldn't have. But you're making it very hard for me to communicate with you when you keep undermining me and the way I played the game when I'm trying to put it all behind us.

[Cecilia]

Hmm. I'm just saying you didn't play the game at all. You had a chance of saving yourself yet for some reason you chose to stay in the minority. But no, most people felt they couldn't connect with you. So there was no way you were gonna get far with that lazy PM game.

[Cecilia]

But I understand you were busy/at your phone. That makes sense. Well, I say let's make up for the sake of having fun here at Ponderosa. :D

[Flicka]

But I understand you were busy/at your phone. That makes sense. Well, I say let's make up for the sake of having fun here at Ponderosa. :D

That's all I want. I don't want to fight. If that's what you thought of my game, alright. I just don't want this game to end with any enemies being made here.

[Cecilia]

I agree.

[Flicka]

I agree.

We good? (Holds out first for fist bump)

[Cecilia]

I agree.

We good? (Holds out first for fist bump)

We are, it wasn't that serious. I just got mad you opened your big mouth to Liliana.