Episode 06

[John Cochran]

What a ride that was.

What did you think about all of the immunities at tribal? Any of them expected?

How did JP leaving impact your game?

What's the gameplan if you end up making it back here tomorrow?

[Jessica]

Well my game has come to a roaring halt. First of all, Flicka saying she had the idol possibly saved me. GODDAMMIT it thise was the worst thing to happen to my game. JP was arguably my closest ally and now he's gone. I've got Anthony, but who knows how long until he's snatched up by Lil as an extra vote.

Honestly I am pretty messed up in terms of placement in this game. I have no alliances, no allies, and a ginormous target on my back. My only hope is to win tomorrow's IC and stay until merge. There isn't another choice because otherwise I am hosed. Coming back to tribal would mean I win the necklace or I leave, and if I win the necklace then Anthony is going. I cannot deal with a third TC in a row.

My best hope for now is to make it to merge and find allies there. Maybe I can work something with someone, but everything has crashed down since I began weaving a web. I wove a giant web and a fucking airplane just smashed through it. Things are awful, but they can get better and I will do my damnedest to make sure they do.

[Jeff Probst]

Before the council, I asked you about your confidence in tonight's vote and you said without a shadow of a doubt you were completely fine and didnt' want to waste your individual immunity. In retrospect, were you being too arrogant? Does this cause you to change your game at all?

[Jessica]

Jeff, everything I ever say and feel is completely false. I don't know anything and I write whatever I am feeling at that exact moment. The closer I got to council the more I realized that messages were sent and I wasn't a part of any of it! I was still confident in myself being safe and Flicka going home. When she stupidly showed her idol, that's when I knew that there was a plan afoot, so I saved myself. This whole situation could've been avoided had I made Stephannie more comfortable and safer.

Honestly my biggest fault right now is overconfidence in my abilities and my relationships. I don't have anyone. Anthony could be fine with Lil for all I know. Stephannie could be lying about wanting to work with me. I am absolutely fucked if we lose tomorrow and all I can hope for is someone decides to spare me. But why would they? It's been shown I have been lying, I have won challenges, I am something to worry about.

The only way I can play this game now is to no longer speak with this assurance I'm safe. To distrust everyone and believe that they all have it out for me. I need to simply win everything. Social game has failed me and i need to completely restart. Winning is all that can keep me safe anymore. If I can make it to merge I can hopefully reconnect with some people, but at the moment I feel nothing but fear and worry around every message and post.

But thanks to my necklace. Otherwise I could've been gone. At least I've made it to top 13!

[Jessica]

So things are looking up, I guess? Anthony and I are a duo and that gives anyone who works with us two solid votes. No one has blocked me out of talking to them, so at least my chances aren't absolute zero. Stephannie has made it clear that she's sympathetic and willing to work with me, hopefully keeping me in this game if we go to tribal again tomorrow. Liliana has also said that she wants to continue working with myself and Anthony. If Anthony and I can create a solid plan, we might just stay here until merge!

When it comes down to trust and who I should be targeting...Flicka is the only person who I haven't spoken to since the first day of Svinoy 3.0. BY THE WAY DID YOU KNOW THE TEAM IS CALLED SVINOY? I DIDN'T! Anyways, she is an idiot and a bad player. If I could get rid of any bad apple it would be her first, which could be hard because I'm not sure where Liliana stands on voting out one of her alliance members. Rocky distrusts me, but we've forged some sort of rivalry, so I like him and want to keep him around if for nothing else but the chats. He's definitely target #2. Liliana has this tribe in her palm and will continue to have control until I weaken her Svinoy alliance, meaning she would be target #3.

I just need to get to merge and I can hopefully start working with Stacy and Nate and Cecilia. This game is confusing though and everything I'm saying is through my perspective. For all I know Stephannie and Liliana are both playing me to get rid of me easier. I wouldn't hold it against them, but I pray that is not the case.

[Jessica]

So I lost us the Immunity challenge. Honestly, I don't think this will affect my standing with the tribe anymore than I'm all ready fucked. However, it does mean that tomorrow could be my last day in this game. I've got to win the immunity necklace to ensure my staying just one more round.

Maybe I don't even need the necklace since neither of my possible targets are here, but I have to win it somehow. I HAVE TO SAVE MYSELF FOR THE WORST CASE SCENARIO.

[Jessica]

WOOOOOOOO! I'M GOING TO BE HERE FOR THE MERGE! I DID IT! I DID IT!

I'm using my necklace at tribal. I don't care how "safe" I'll be, I am not taking any chances. This is Jess' time to shine and remain a player. I will continue to fight, to dominate, to work my way into living. My goal is to now ensure Liliana goes home

[Jessica]

So Liliana sent me this message

Hey I'm back

But don't think you're totally out, because tbh i wsnt Flicka gone. I honestly would've voted for her, but that idol... ugh. At least it's out of play now.

I think I can get Steph to vote Flicka if I convince her how much of a threat she is. I mean, she found the idol, she ratted our old alliance out in Svinoy 2.0, she's done pretty well overall. Plus there's still that mistrust between them.

Flicka should've been gone like 2 TCs ago lol.

I've sent it to Stephannie and Anthony. We're attempting to get Flicka to switch onto our side to get rid of Liliana. Honestly I'm not sure if Flicka is even smart enough to figure out how devious and bad of an ally Lil is, but let's hope there's something left in that balloon-ass head of hers. The question of whether Rocky will vote her out is hard to answer. The thing about this is that I cannot be the one to suggest these ideas. Neither of those two trust me or want to trust me, because obviously I'm the worst, and I planned on getting both of them out.

I can hope that tonight doesn't end in a tie. I don't know what will happen at that point, but I know it will not be good. Either way tonight will be an interesting vote. Not as interesting as Monday's, but nevertheless an interesting one.

[Jeff Probst]

If you don't think Flicka is capable of disbelieving Liliana, why approach her instead of another member of the tribe

[Jessica]

If Flicka isn't willing to even consider saving herself, then hopefully Rocky can be coerced. There aren't anymore options than those two since myself, Anthony, and Stephannie are all going against Liliana. If neither of those two are willing to consider their "ally" would easily switch on them, then it's hard to deal with a bunch of idiots.

I will do my darndest to convince them that getting rid of Liliana is the best move for them. They can get eliminate a fairweather friend who would sell them out for a stronger alliance, and hopefully join more trustworthy friends ie my alliance.

Maybe everyone is getting Anthony out and I'm being played, since that is a total option. However I feel as though Rocky would understand his circumstances and get rid of someone untrustworthy in hopes that it can protect him for longer in this game than keeping her around.

[Jessica]

The calm and quiet of this tribal council makes the whole situation so tense. I have no idea what the vote will be like tonight. For all I know, Anthony is going home 4-2 because Stephannie has been betraying us.

I am beyond paranoid that this merge will be me against the world. I only hope that the votes turn out to be in my favor. Please let Liliana leave!

[Jessica]

Fml.